WHEN WE WISH UPON A STAR

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Wishing upon a star was done daily when I was a child. I wished for everything I didn’t have, including being able to make my siblings disappear when we would argue.  When I was about 13 or fourteen my wishes seemed to change. I wished for a handsome boyfriend, a rich boyfriend, rich parents and a baseball glove. As I got a little older the handsome boyfriend took first place. I wished that life wouldn’t be so unfair, why was I born into a poor family? Why couldn’t Carolyn be born in my family and I in hers. However she did have a pain in the ass brother named Robbie, so maybe that was one wish I really didn’t care about.

At about 16 my big wish was to have Billy Vito as my boyfriend. Every single night when I would see the first star appear in the sky I would make my wish. He was gorgeous, or at least I thought so. He was tall, with dark curly hair and a beautiful smile. I used to sit on our stoop and read the news paper in the warm weather just to get a glimpse of him when he would walk by my house on his way home. I was positive he liked me, or maybe it was just wishful thinking, but none the less he was my main wish. Then it happened. I was reading a article in the newspaper and it happened to be of interest to me so I was engrossed in it. All of a sudden someone smacked the paper and I jumped with a yelp. I looked up and there in all of his gorgeousness stood Billy. I was dumb founded, I lost my breath for a few seconds, and my voice went up about 4 octave’s.

“Oh my God, you scared me.” I said. He laughed a little and then said “Hi.”

“Hi.” I managed to squeak out. It felt like my heart was beating a thousand times a minute.

“Patti, can you meet me at Jerry’s store tonight, about 8:00?”

Jerry’s Store was the grocery store that the neighborhood used for the weekly shopping. (We did not have supermarkets at the time. Possibly a Bohack store, but nothing like we have now.)

My heart started pounding more furiously, if that was possible.

“Why?” was the only thing I could think of to say.

“I want to ask you something, and I thought maybe we could have a soda.”

I became leery. All the boys on the block used to hang out at Jerry’s in the evening, and I could just see myself being made the brunt of a big joke. Possibly a dare? It would be just like these stupid boys to do something like that. I panicked.

“Sorry, I’m busy tonight.” I said.

I wanted to suck the words back as quickly as I heard myself say them. It was too late. He said.

“Oh, OK. Well I’ll see you around.”

I was not going to be busy, he knew I wasn’t going to be busy and I knew he knew I was not going to be busy that night. I guess to him it was a total rejection. It was a total heart break for me. Rather than risk being the brunt of a neighborhood joke I had just turned down my biggest wish.

When I told my sisters and my mom, they were shocked that I turned him down. They apparently all knew what a crush I had on him. When I told them why, my mother said.

“Patti, Mrs. Vito mentioned to me that Billy was thinking of asking you to his school dance for Friday night and she wanted to know if you would be allowed to attend.”

“WHAT! Why didn’t you tell me?”

“Because she was not sure he was going to ask you, and I didn’t want you to be disappointed.”

I was devastated. My two older sisters laughed about it for days. Billy never did ask me out, or to meet him at Jerry’s again. Be careful what you wish for.

I never gave up the wishing and still wish to this day. Only now my wishes have changed dramatically.

Don’t get me wrong. Many of my wishes did come true. I married, raised three wonderful children and enjoy my grand children’s company. They are the joy of my life. I have a great husband, who still makes me laugh and is a wonderful Grampi to all the kids.

Now my wishes are for peace, happiness, success for my children and grandchildren. I am hoping that I have been a good enough human being that the good Lord lets me pass in my sleep. I do not want to be a burden to any one. I now wish that the world would be a safer place for all humanity, no more wars, no more diseases, no more poverty, and a host of other things that I feel could be better in this world of ours. Hopefully my wishes will be granted, The one thing I know I can wish for and get. Hope.

8 thoughts on “WHEN WE WISH UPON A STAR

  1. This is just a hunch, but I wonder if there was some gut instinct that told you Billy Vito as not the one. Maybe it was the way he smacked the newspaper you were engrossed in, instead of taking an interest and saying, “Hey, whatcha readin?” I’m glad you married happily.

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  2. Hi,
    As a kid, I used to wish upon a star. The song, When you wish upon star, burns in my memory. As a teenager, I had a similar experience with a teenage boy who I had a big crush on. He attended a private school. The night before he left to go back, he came to my house and we sit on the front porch and talked until my dad said it was time to come in. He left and said when he came back on spring break, he and I were going to get to know one another better. I was so happy, but he never came back. The week before spring break started, he drowned while swimming with some of his friends at school. I was devastated and to be honest with you, that is something I’ll never forget, and I was thankful for those few hours that we shared the night before he went back to school.
    Your article awoke a very pleasant memory in me.
    Thanks for sharing.
    Shalom,
    Patti

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